I will persist.
This has been a persistent theme for most of my life. A couple of examples come to mind. For me, personally, the triumph over the effects of Polio as a child have been a nagging and recurring theme. Told to my parents that I would never walk, threw them and me a challenge. The paragraph from Og this month is so apropos. I eliminated all of those words like impossible, improbable, out of the question. And when the physical challenges reared their ugliness again with a syndrome called PPS, I once again took up the charge, lost a lot of weight, began exercising again, and got going again.
When I was a Junior at Notre Dame, I missed about a month due to hepatitis from infectious mono. My dream for early admission to medical school was challenged because I would have had an incomplete for that important semester. The words again: failure, incomplete, unworkable, hopeless. I camped out over the Christmas break in the empty and snow draped silent dormitories and completed all the requirements and finished in time to begin the Spring semester and moved on to my career. As I later learned, “when the Dream is big enough, the facts don’t count”-D.Y.
So I’ve done it before. It’s in there somewhere. Why am I having so much doubt about things now? I think there are a couple of reasons. The first is that the desired result isn’t as clear as before and I’m working on that. The second is that I need the “sit” more than ever to connect with my Higher Power from whom all things desired are received.
When it was quiet in the dorms in South Bend, I remember focusing on what I was doing there and praying for help in my studies. I thought of packing it in, and going home for Christmas and just quitting this crazy exercise. But I had a plan and I believed in it and in the quiet times I would think and pray for it to happen. And it did.
I’ve rewritten my DMP so many times that it’s not funny. The problem is that I haven’t been genuine with myself. I really know what I want, but I was more concerned with how it might sound to others until this week when I connected during a sit with the realization that having it doesn’t exclude the use of it for the pivotal needs of Legacy and Liberty. Just call it what it is and get on with it. Think Bill Gates (Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation) or Hubert Friedl ( Lyoness Child and Family Foundation)
So it’s on an index card and l carry it with me and read it. I talk to God about it during my sit and what I can do with it. And I know I shall have them. Did it before and I will do again.